I so did not want to meditate tonight. I just wanted to continue with my nightly wind-down routine of decor blogs and silence. I’m glad I still did it, though.
A few things I’ve observed: I want to be able to meditate in the midst of noise. I am still finding it challenging to focus on meditating when there’s noise in my home or nearby. I remember years ago, on a trip to Epcot Center at Disneyworld, I came across a woman meditating. We were in some sort of science center and there she was, sitting on the floor, meditating. It was a noisy place, kids everywhere, lights flashing… but here she was, in the lotus position. I thought it was so cool that she was able to do that, in that environment.
This was about 13 years ago, and that image still impacts me today. I don’t know if it’s the noise/stimuli itself, or that I tend to focus on those things that makes meditating more difficult. But I’m sure the more practice I have with it, the easier it will become.
I also noticed tonight, that when I first sit down to meditate, I get itchy. I feel these little sensations of itchiness, in random places on my body. What’s weird is I don’t feel this way any other time, except sometimes when I lay down for bed. I wonder if it’s because my attention is not directed on anything else, that I really notice this? Or perhaps it’s something with my nerves?